Welcome to the club.
I got my first pair of shorts and rode in the dark (4 am dark) and felt self conscious. Now I walk into the grocery store stinking from a long ride because I need to run an errand on my way home.
Don't want to see my 6'6" 284 lb butt in lycra? Tough. I look better than I did at 6'6" and 348 and that was a whole different size category of lycra. Now I'm buying new lycra because the old ones are too big.
If buying and wearing lycra makes me buy and wear smaller lycra then forward my mail to Lycra City!