I know what a big deal weighing is after such a long time away from the scale . . . thoughts are with you.
me and the scale is a mind game. lately, I can only weigh myself when I believe I have lost weight or am dehydrated after a workout, ie. when it is likely the scale will give me good news, ie. a low number or low-ER number. I get discouraged after a week of hard effort training and seemingly conscious eating, but then the number does not budge. Sometimes, I think the digital scale is stuck on a number. Then I have to pick up a heavy object to see if it really will record the weight change. Then weigh again without the object. On and on and on. Yeah, welcome to my life. It's all about managing expectations, if the number is below expectation, I am happy. I envy those of you who can treat the whole thing objectively, like "it's just a number" . . . I can't do that. There is great emotional investment in this number.