i know how you feel, saturday a week ago(25/01/03) a good friend & workmate was killed in our workshop after being hit by a rake of passenger cars we were shunting into the workshop, exactly what happened we dont realy know as all the safety procedures were in place, workshop strobe lights flashing, sirens sounding ect. he had a fractured skull & severed spinal columb but it looked like he bleed to death from internal injury as well as there was a lot of blood poring from his mouth, we are waiting for the coroners report & hearing to find out if he may have had some kind of seizure &stagered between the cars.we had his funeral last wednesday, it was a heart breaking experiance as we have all worked together in our depot for more than 10 yrs.
i myself felt / feel quite depressed & having trouble getting motivated, even riding my extra Ks on my homeward commute has been a big effort, but we have each others support at work & my wife & daughters have been great. so no dought we,ll get thru it .