warning: long post, abridged version at bottom*
so last wednesday, i did a training ride with the uc's cycling team. it was my first time on rollers for any meaningful time, but no i did not crash. anyway, after the workout, my vision starts to go kinda weird. the center of my vision starts to go gray. i drive home, and by the time i get there, there is kind of a wavy line in the center that is gone from vision. soon after that, my right eye begins to lose vision on the outside periphery. i am freking out. this has happened once before. it was also after a bike ride, but i thought it was just from not getting enough food earlier. i am freaking out. within 20 minutes, the disturbance is gone.
thursday, i go to the doctor at uc for a referral to opthymalogist/mri/mra to see what is going on. she thinks it could be a number of things, including brain tumor/anyeurism. i get blood work done there, and then go to the opth later that day. eyes are completely fine, and he thinks it is just an eye migraine, but wants to be sure and says to have the mri/mra anyway. (a note: optic nerve migraines are not too big of a deal. a lot of people have them. they are fairly unpredictable and can be managed somewhat easily.)
friday, i get my mri and mra done. not very pleasant considering how much i was freaking out. as i leave, i see a scan of my brain on the screen and think i see something that is not supposed to be there. needless to say, i freak out. big time. keep in mind, that i am not at al trained to read an mri, and recognize that radiologists are paid big bucks to do this, but i am hyper sensitive to this kind of stuff anyway, so that pretty much sent me into panic. to make things worse, it takes 24 hours for the radiologist to get the images analyzed and this is the weekend.
saturday/sunday consist of me freaking out, not eating, not sleeping, and pondering what is important in life, mainly my family and my girlfriend (who btw, stepped up big time for me and was the only reason i didn't go insane-->i am taking her on a vacation this winter for her efforts) weight went from 148 to 143 from lack of fluid and food. like i said, i really freaked out.
monday at around 1:30pm, my doctor calls with results from mri saying that everything was apparently normal. i was very happy. was able to eat dinner with the gf, her family, my family. big relief. made me rethink my obsession with bike riding. i remembered how important my family and my loved ones are to me. everyday is a blessing. i cannot tell you how blue the sky was today, or how wonderful it feels walking around without worrying.
i am taking at least a few weeks off the bike to spend with loved ones, so i may not be around here too much during that time. i have one more test to do, very small chance the vision loss could be a precursor to ms in very early stages. if anything happens with this i will let you guys know. until then, good luck training everyone. give your loved ones a hug, and remember how fake a lot of our problems really are. oh, and thank doctors for doing what they do.
* abridged version: i thought i might be really sick. it turned out i was fine (barring one last unlikely scenario). made me realize how much i love my family. therefore, taking time off the bike to be with them.