dahoss2002, I'm very sorry to hear of the hand that fate has dealt you. I know first hand the task of starting over which lies ahead of you. No point in sugar coating it. It is a daunting and exhausting road. However, it is not impossible. I offer you this advice; be sure to clearly identify the light at the end of what ever tunnels you travels. Some have proven to be oncoming trains. Grace&Peace. Cyclesick