In that last mile or so when everyone is looking around/hesitating for someone to attack, be that guy. But time to launch just milliseconds before everyone looks for it.
You may not win, but you'll probably place highly.
And you'll never be accused of being field fodder.
Also, stop watching your wattage. It sounds like it's dictating how you feel about yourself.
And nothing rattles my cage.
Or at least I can't hear it over my creaking bones.