Hang in there, I can totally understand the stressed out mess going on in your head. I've been very stressed out a lot lately, some life changing events going on. Anyway, the bike is my escape from it all. But also don't put so much pressure on yourself to win. Obviously from your other posts you are a good bike racer, a win will come. Sometimes it's best to go into a race saying, today I will race to have fun and you never know what can happen.
Good luck!