Thanks all!
I will definitely roll on, I AM "Roller" dave.
Its just that we are in a very uncertain phase right now, I mean if I knew what she was going to do, I could brace myself for it, but I don't think even SHE knows so it is this awful cycle of giving me a little hope, dashing it, repeat.
She's off for a week on a "camping trip" with "work friends" and who knows? That may be true.
But meanwhile no contact, and that usually means something bad, and I am taking the time to consolidate my position.
I'm packing things I know I want, getting the rest ready for thrift stores or craigslist.
Not her stuff tho, She will find everything that is hers here and treated respectfully.
Hard to be focused and purposeful when she keeps me wracked with uncertainty.
Well, I'm a roller so I guess I'll roll on.
RD