Foo - Whatcha doin'?

Ok, so to re-cap UA's day...

Woke up with a splitting headache from drinking cheap rot-gut corn whiskey.
Spent the morning trying to sleep but could not.
Got a call from my best friend with an invite for a late brunch.
While waiting for the table, ...her... rides passed...instant depression.
Best friend leaves for Portland.
Rake leaves until I kill my upper body.
Now I'm tired, depressed, alone in the house, and no one to talk to.

cool.

Stay away from the ethanol tonight, or you're doomed to a repeat tomorrow. :D

Ok, so to re-cap UA's day...

Woke up with a splitting headache from drinking cheap rot-gut corn whiskey.
Spent the morning trying to sleep but could not.
Got a call from my best friend with an invite for a late brunch.
While waiting for the table, ...her... rides passed...instant depression.
Best friend leaves for Portland.
Rake leaves until I kill my upper body.
Now I'm tired, depressed, alone in the house, and no one to talk to.

cool.




I'd run some entertaining threads for you but I have too much insanely boring crap to do....:(

(this is basically a 5 minute sanity break)

I'm watching "Breaking Away".

Oh I don't EVEN want to recap my day. :rolleyes:


But sometimes one just needs to curl into a ball and cuddle into someone's arms. :o




It's all good. I don't need that. :notamused:

good choice....slightly depressing at times early on (well, maybe not depressing exactly) but a great ending. One of the ones you can watch over and over....never gets old.

I have it n DVD and VHS

Oh I don't EVEN want to recap my day. :rolleyes:


But sometimes one just needs to curl into a ball and cuddle into someone's arms. :o




It's all good. I don't need that. :notamused:

Oh thanks...as soon I as find someone whose arms I can cuddle into, I'll get right on that. :mad:

I understand Jon is available. :D

It's all good. I don't need that. :notamused:

the recap, or the curling up?

I'm bummed today too...I think everyone is going thru a post-election funk...regardless of their attention to/involvement with.....very post partum syndrome or something.

I understand Jon is available. :D

not my type.

Penn State lost. Grr. There go our national championship hopes for this year.

But I got my haircut, rode an easy 15 miles to recover from yesterday, cashed some checks, and umm, yeah, that's about it.

the recap, or the curling up?



Either one. I don't really want to recap because all it's gonna do is get me bummed out. I don't need the curling up because I have to face things head on and HTFU.

I really need to cut my feelings that I have for people, is all.

Either one. I don't really want to recap because all it's gonna do is get me bummed out. I don't need the curling up because I have to face things head on and HTFU.

I really need to cut my feelings that I have for people, is all.

why do that?

curling up and cuddling is good. too bad we 3 don't have anyone with us to do so. :o :hug:

Make that 4. I wanna join the pity-party

well, come on over...i'm sure there's room for one more. :D

I'm gonna eat ice cream.

watching the da vinci code and hoping i'll be able to stay up to watch SNL tonight.

sorry guys:(

I've been there. It's nice curling up - but it also felt good to face things head on and HTFU when I needed to do just that....

I'm not only bummed (curl up opportunities notwithstanding), but various assorted parts of my 40-something yr old body feel like they're 90-something today...ow. I need more sleep and less physical abuse, I guess.....:notamused:

boo... no one wants my shifters...

seriously, $100~110+$20 S&H USD is the going price on ebay, and no one wants them in clist.

people need to realize the exchange rate puts that at $140 CDN and stop dreaming of the $1US = $1 CDN parity of at least a quarter year ago...

why do that?

Because if you don't let people in, you cannot get to the point of depending upon them to take care of your feelings. And if you don't depend upon them you cannot get disappointed! :thumb:

locking our feelings away, keeps us from being disappointed and hurt. i'm trying to keep mine locked up as well...too big of a chance of getting hurt.....

Not me! I figure I can't get hurt any more than I already have been. :D

getting away, and getting outdoors too. best of both worlds.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0f2aFhZ3Uk

locking our feelings away, keeps us from being disappointed and hurt. i'm trying to keep mine locked up as well...too big of a chance of getting hurt.....

High five, sister! *slap!* :D

But seriously, I'm cool with dealing with people on an everyday level. That's the easy part. But I'm very cautious who I let into my heart. It's not so much locking the feelings away, it's just letting them go and disappear. Not exist, period.

Sittin' here...

*high five* back atcha siu!! :D

well, i don't want my feelings to not exist....i just need to be very careful right now...i know how i'm feeling about nyguy and, i don't know...just hate to be exposed and get hurt.

a... boo... my left leg is aching just now.

had a front wheel skid on wet leaves in the morning and I put my foot down multiple times to catch it, but now my leg hurts, guh.

good side: didn't go down
bad side: sac'd leg

locking our feelings away, keeps us from being disappointed and hurt. i'm trying to keep mine locked up as well...too big of a chance of getting hurt.....

I thought I had things pretty tightly locked up until I met The Girl... who seems to have an uncanny way with locks.

:)

I watched a friend at her performance which was pretty awesome. Sitting at home, wondering if I should eat something. For tomorrow, got a 2-3 hour ride planned and then some touch football woohoo..

*high five* back atcha siu!! :D

well, i don't want my feelings to not exist....i just need to be very careful right now...i know how i'm feeling about nyguy and, i don't know...just hate to be exposed and get hurt.

I have FEELINGS for people and all, I'm talking about allowing past the realm of trust.

I am pretty much toasted. 10 miles with the racewalking group, then I taught an hour spin class (intervals) then did a 40-mile ride after that. I didn't fall asleep in church tonight though, the sermon was actually short and entertaining.

I made a glass of Romulan Ale. That stuff is perfect if you want to forget your name and wake up the next morning feeling like you've experienced one of those Vulcan neck pinches. I had a few sips, then had to dump it. I'm such a lightweight now.

I have FEELINGS for people and all, I'm talking about allowing past the realm of trust.

http://forums.monstersmallbusiness.com/style_emoticons/monsters/hug.gif

I am pretty much toasted. 10 miles with the racewalking group, then I taught an hour spin class (intervals) then did a 40-mile ride after that.
Nice! How much did you eat for dinner?

I made a glass of Romulan Ale. That stuff is perfect if you want to forget your name and wake up the next morning feeling like you've experienced one of those Vulcan neck pinches. I had a few sips, then had to dump it. I'm such a lightweight now.
Can I try some of that Romulan Ale please? I could give you a run for the money on the lightweight competition though.

I had a few sips, then had to dump it. I'm such a lightweight now.

I'm with ya... I barely made it through a pitcher of (Canadian) draft tonight before I had to call it quits...

:D

Nice! How much did you eat for dinner?

Can I try some of that Romulan Ale please? I could give you a run for the money on the lightweight competition though.

Surprisingly, I wasn't starving at dinner. I had pasta, salad, and dark chocolate brownies. :)

The Romulan Ale recipe is equal parts of the following:
Blue curacao
Rum
Everclear :eek:,or Vodka, or Sprite. (I chose the vodka)

It was just too strong after my tough day. And it tasted too alcohol-y. I might try it again with some sort of mixer.

Having some limeade, then switching to a can of Dale's. Watching Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels.

Having some limeade, then switching to a can of Dale's. Watching Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels.

Awesome movie!

I got a great letter today.

The guy that bought my Niner wrote to thank me for all the information I gave him and to say that he loves it! He had been riding a rigid bike, but once he realized my Niner was also rigid, he had qualms. I explained that the larger wheels had a lot more give, and now that he's ridden it he agrees he doesn't need suspension. It was also the first time he'd gone clipless and everything worked out great. :)

Because if you don't let people in, you cannot get to the point of depending upon them to take care of your feelings. And if you don't depend upon them you cannot get disappointed! :thumb:

Alone is no way to go through life...there are ups and downs...everyone has them. without disappointment you cant know contentment. without sadness...you will never know happiness.





locking our feelings away, keeps us from being disappointed and hurt. i'm trying to keep mine locked up as well...too big of a chance of getting hurt.....

If you lock all of your feelings away then you may not get hurt...but chances are you will miss all the good times also. I wouldn't trade one of the best 3 second moments of my life for all the pain and suffering I have been through.

Pain, disappointment and sadness always end...and the heart heals

High five, sister! *slap!* :D

But seriously, I'm cool with dealing with people on an everyday level. That's the easy part. But I'm very cautious who I let into my heart. It's not so much locking the feelings away, it's just letting them go and disappear. Not exist, period.

What is a human being without there feelings? Don't you like most of the people you surround yourself with? You seem to have alot of friends...They haven't all turned on you have they? :(

I want to be surrounded by vulcans.

you're right mb...i guess that's why i will continue on with whatever nyguy and i have going on. like, lust, love, whatever....i just need to go with the flow and enjoy the time we have together because i'm having fun with him and, i wouldn't miss out on this just because i'm afraid of getting hurt.....the hurt will eventually subside....

on a different note....just got an email from my X....attached to the email was our separation agreement. wow. even when this is what i want, it's still hard, because we are still friends and spent the past 12yr together...*sigh*

you're right mb...i guess that's why i will continue on with whatever nyguy and i have going on. like, lust, love, whatever....i just need to go with the flow and enjoy the time we have together because i'm having fun with him and, i wouldn't miss out on this just because i'm afraid of getting hurt.....the hurt will eventually subside....

on a different note....just got an email from my X....attached to the email was our separation agreement. wow. even when this is what i want, it's still hard, because we are still friends and spent the past 12yr together...*sigh*

Life comes at you hard...that's why I wear a helmet :D

I wrote something once when I was feeling like I think you were before...I have posted it before but I will post it again for you.

I awaken and open my ancient eyes to gaze around me
I see a reflection of the dark of night
Cold and black
Devoid of light
For mine I would swim a thousand seas
Walk through glass upon my knees
For a thousand lives such as mine
I would not trade even one day’s time
For each and every moments breath I breathe
There lives a chance I failed to seize
A broken man with broken dreams
In a withered land with withered trees
The weeping trees
A faltering breeze through browning leaves
Speaks of brooks and scattered reeds
Down the hill to the lumber mill goes the weeping tree
For mine I wait a thousand years
Hide my fears and drown in tears unending
Minds bending
Bends the weeping tree
Through the mill and turned to fill
To fill the beds of bushes breeds
Another race of weeping trees
For mine I swear a thousand oaths
And to the death would I uphold
Each and every one
The harvest sun
Bakes the weeping tree
I fall to my knees upon the ground
Raise my arms towards the heavens
Battered bruised
Shocked and shaken
And the flames
They engulf me
For mine I would die a thousand deaths
Stand through torture proud and kept
I am the weeping tree

Alone is no way to go through life...there are ups and downs...everyone has them. without disappointment you cant know contentment. without sadness...you will never know happiness.


I know what contentment is because I have it NOW. I am not alone, because there is no need for anyone else. I've had plenty of sadness, therefore much happiness. :)


What is a human being without there feelings? Don't you like most of the people you surround yourself with? You seem to have alot of friends...They haven't all turned on you have they? :(

I like most of the people I surround myself with because I chose to have them in my life. It's just a matter of how much. I care about them, I FEEL....but there is only so far that I will allow myself to.

I know what contentment is because I have it NOW. I am not alone, because there is no need for anyone else. I've had plenty of sadness, therefore much happiness. :)



I like most of the people I surround myself with because I chose to have them in my life. It's just a matter of how much. I care about them, I FEEL....but there is only so far that I will allow myself to.

Being an open person could lead you to leaving yourself unprotected...however you probably would never have befriended half the people your friends with if you hadnt been that way in the first place. shouldnt let a few bad eggs change your way of doing things ;) It's those few...not everyone.

I am glad your content :)

I was just on a pretty big walk, and some gang banger punks were smashing up signs. When they saw me and my holstered Sig, they stopped and quickly left the area. I don't normally like it when a weapon intimidates someone, but in their case, I certainly did.

I'm thinkin...it is what it is ;)
not your gun story dude...didnt see you there
just in general
It is what it is...
we all pick our battles
and therefore our losses

for now...
I'm just gonna pet my puppies :D

night Foo. arti and I are doing a ride tomorrow. :)

High five, sister! *slap!* :D

But seriously, I'm cool with dealing with people on an everyday level. That's the easy part. But I'm very cautious who I let into my heart. It's not so much locking the feelings away, it's just letting them go and disappear. Not exist, period.


I dunno - in some philosophies, it's the very definition of 'warrior': Not being a bada*s with hardware and attitude, but the willingness to be open and face life with a raw and open heart. :innocent:

night Foo. arti and I are doing a ride tomorrow. :)

nice! enjoy, guys:)