Foo - Today/Tonight, I hurt....

Dont' want to start another "drunk" thread. Don't intend to start a thread anti-"someone-else." Just want to say that, for whatever reason, I hurt right now. For instance, in this moment, there are tears on my face, and occasional sobbing....

What, in this moment that you read this, has got you down, or otherwise has caught you in a very emotionally-difficult moment? <curious Vega look>

Not down at all here, but lifting you up in my thoughts and prayers right now. Wish I could do more, but know that I am sending positive thoughts your way.

Love ya, jsharr. Even though one of "them" you be. :rolleyes:


:love:

Thank you. :o

*Hugs Foo mom*

Right now the only thing bringing me down is waiting for a special someone to do the right thing, I don't want to say on the boards though.

WTP, baybuh, 1) Thanks for the Foo-hugs, and 2) PM me anytime. I loves me my Foo-son. :love:

Heh, you should know that by now. :mad: Dammit. <serious Vega look>

Sorry you are feeling badly Vega. For me it's the stress of fatherhood for the second time and all of the things that come with it, combined with stress at work, and not riding near as much as I would like...it's tough sometimes, but I have to at the brightside of things. Trying not to let it get me down.

I don't care to publicly air the dirty laundry, but I've also seen better days.

Hang in there, Vega.

Vega, let me also say that you have done a lot in the last 7-8 months since you joined that has given me a lot of laughter, joy, and some tears and I appreciate what contribute to our community greatly.

I hope you are back in good spirits soon, so much that you create a "Today/Tonight I feel great!!" thread.

Thanks, my Foo friends. I do feel badly at the moment. Just tryin' to see if anyone ever else felt so badly, an' I hoping to see if he/she made it through. I also don't like to air my dirty "south'un" laundry, either, VV, but I have alluded to it off an' on without being so explicit.... <serious Vega look>

Dont' want to start another "drunk" thread. Don't intend to start a thread anti-"someone-else." Just want to say that, for whatever reason, I hurt right now. For instance, in this moment, there are tears on my face, and occasional sobbing....

What, in this moment that you read this, has got you down, or otherwise has caught you in a very emotionally-difficult moment? <curious Vega look>

The fact that you're hurting that much makes me sad. I wish I lived closer so I could give you a shoulder to cry on.

You just did, HG. :)

They finally did stick the tube in my grandma that you mentioned Vega, so she's feeling better.

The thing that has me down is that while I was at the hospital visiting her, I accidentaly saw a wrinkled old lady's boob. Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. (wasn't my grandma's, just some a random hallway hospital gown mishap)

:) Happy thoughts headed your way from a native, but long since removed, Tar Heel. :)

Hope things start looking up for you.

I'm sorry, Vega. It's raining out now, but when it's over the world will be fresh and clean again.

I'm sorry VV, Like everyone else, I wish I was there to help, even though we don't know each other IRL, we all have a connection in here. My stressor right now is being junior faculty, worrying about promotion (it's up or out) in a drastically reduced funding climate (we gotta fight a war, ya know, and health research just isn't the same priority in some quarters). And promotion in my business is every bit as predicated on funding as it is on publications. I literally wake up in the middle of the night in a sweat about this stuff, as do, I'm sure, hundreds (thousands) of others- even senior faculty who still have to get grants to survive.

OK- enough of my tale of woe, but you asked ;). And while I agree with everyone's sentiments here, I have to single out Lecterman's comment about the contribution you make to all of us. I hope you realize how important you are here- no kidding about this, but you and several others in here are the reason I bought a red star. This is an important place for me, and you're an important part of that.

Hugs to you and feel better!

I hoping to see if he/she made it through.

Everybody makes it through, for some it just takes longer then others. Look into the future, good things are bound to happen, I personally believe in Karma and if it's true you have a lot of good stuff coming towards you.

Dont' want to start another "drunk" thread. Don't intend to start a thread anti-"someone-else." Just want to say that, for whatever reason, I hurt right now. For instance, in this moment, there are tears on my face, and occasional sobbing....

What, in this moment that you read this, has got you down, or otherwise has caught you in a very emotionally-difficult moment? <curious Vega look>

The only thing that has me down is knowing that a foster (foostess?) is hurting. I hope whatever it is goes away soon. *Hugs*

Dont' want to start another "drunk" thread. Don't intend to start a thread anti-"someone-else." Just want to say that, for whatever reason, I hurt right now. For instance, in this moment, there are tears on my face, and occasional sobbing....

What, in this moment that you read this, has got you down, or otherwise has caught you in a very emotionally-difficult moment? <curious Vega look>

Whatever it is, Vega, I'm sorry. <hugs> <reassuring DrPete look> ;)

hey girlfriend...(((((hugs))))) hope you get to feeling better.

pm me it you need to.

Happy thoughts and XOXOXO to you VV!!! Tears are just sorrow leaving the body, nothing wrong with them. Allow yourself to experience the feelings, cry and soon they will pass. My ex-GF and I just had a crying session from all the stuff that's been happening in our lives and now we're feeling better! We're gonna hit the clubs and she's gonna be my wing-girl tonite. :)

Nothin' has me down right now. I'm really sorry something has *you* down.
Big hugs to you.

My stressor right now is being junior faculty, worrying about promotion (it's up or out) in a drastically reduced funding climate (we gotta fight a war, ya know, and health research just isn't the same priority in some quarters). And promotion in my business is every bit as predicated on funding as it is on publications. I literally wake up in the middle of the night in a sweat about this stuff, as do, I'm sure, hundreds (thousands) of others- even senior faculty who still have to get grants to survive.


Baybuh, I do know so well how "politically" these collegiate things can be. I do wish for you the best with regard to promotion. I do understand the "publish or perish" syndrome. Please don't let it eat you so badly. I do know how it is, but there is a small modicum of interest placed upon junior faculty who can actually teach. I think that you, baybuh, will "survive." FWIW, :) .

Thanks, everyone, Lecterman, others. I do hurt in this moment. It's very near the 8th month anniversary of my husband's death. Hard to explain to those who haven't been there, and I sure as hell don't knock those who haven't been. :)

But, I'm curious as to what have been and how have some of you handled your "worst" moments of life? This is not a trump issue. As far as I'm concerned, we all have our moments of challenge, and they don't all look the same. The point is: what did it look like to you, and how did you face it? Again, it's not about how big or how long. :rolleyes: Heh. You know. :rolleyes:

Sending hugs & Kisses

Big Shifty hugs, come over and sit on the deck and tell me about it over a beer or two. It's a hell of a process, let it roll.

Thanks for the encouragement and well-wishes, VV- it's not like it's the total end of the world not to get promoted at one place, as it's usually possible to move someplace else with a promotion.

Being a relative newcomer, I didn't realize that it was so close to your husband's death. I'm so sorry and can't imagine what you've gone through and are going through now. At her father's funeral, a friend of ours said something I thought was very true (it has since become very true for me)- you have to go through the seasons, a full year, before the healing really begins. I know that's probably not much help, and you may have heard it before, but it's an interesting perspective on the mourning process- sort of helps you see that there is an end to the tunnel after all.

I'll have to think about how to respond to your question, but I'll get back to you. In the meantime, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

But, I'm curious as to what have been and how have some of you handled your "worst" moments of life? This is not a trump issue. As far as I'm concerned, we all have our moments of challenge, and they don't all look the same. The point is: what did it look like to you, and how did you face it? Again, it's not about how big or how long. :rolleyes: Heh. You know. :rolleyes:

Hi there VegaVixen,

My name is Brent and I am very new here. I had to comment on your question. About 6 weeks ago I was ready to kill myself over many issues. I have been divorced for about 12 years now. I have had no contact with my daughter in about 10 years. That is mostly my fault. I am an alcoholic. My parents both died within 6 months of each other last year. I fealt like I had nothing to live for. I was saved from killing myself by a former memeber of this forum. He is helping me out with so many of my lifes problems that I think he should be sainted. He has provided me with shelter, income, and a new focus in life. In fact I found BikeForums because he is lettting me use his laptop computer and he still has it in his favorites folder. I am sorry that your husband died. My biggest anger about losing Dad was that I didn't tell him often enough how special he was to me. I flooded Mom with love after Dad passed but I almost fealt like it was forced or insincere. Kind of like I was trying to make up for messing things up with Dad prior to his passing. I faced it with the love of a person I had just met a few days earlier. We SCUBA dived together and shared some good laughs. He savd me from making the biggest mistake a person can ever make. I thought the world was better off without me than with me. He helped me to realize for myself just how wrong I was. I have a long way to go but now I feel like I can make it there. I wish you the best and will pray for you. You deserve it. You are someone we need to make this world a better place. :) (((HUGS)))

If you need to talk, I'm still up and you've got my number.

Thanks, my Foo friends. I do feel badly at the moment. Just tryin' to see if anyone ever else felt so badly, an' I hoping to see if he/she made it through. <serious Vega look>


You were there to help me when I needed it. I have never been so scared or sad, EVER. You helped me through it with your insight, support, and love. Love you, baybuh. *serious Scott hug*

Thanks for the encouragement and well-wishes, VV- it's not like it's the total end of the world not to get promoted at one place, as it's usually possible to move someplace else with a promotion.

Being a relative newcomer, I didn't realize that it was so close to your husband's death. I'm so sorry and can't imagine what you've gone through and are going through now. At her father's funeral, a friend of ours said something I thought was very true (it has since become very true for me)- you have to go through the seasons, a full year, before the healing really begins. I know that's probably not much help, and you may have heard it before, but it's an interesting perspective on the mourning process- sort of helps you see that there is an end to the tunnel after all.

I'll have to think about how to respond to your question, but I'll get back to you. In the meantime, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
I'm never sure exactly where I am, but I'm sure there is some truth in this, MTBLover. :)

2000ftbelow, first thing is that I love you. You have spoken to me in a very sincere and open way that I do not see, but yet, a way that touches me in a very sincere and life-experienced way. PM more if you wish. I can feel and share your anguish. You are already part of me. :)

wp, directions will come to you tomorrow. Sorry I got too overwhelmed today. :o

Danno, I love you. Keep PM'ing. :)

VM, thanks a few centuries. Medieval or present. :D

FSM, let me know, on the forums or via PM/email, when you are ready for another CLT Foo Lunch. :) I know that BSMA is jonesin' to go somewhere. :)

Shifty, I have absolutely no doubt that I will be sittin' on your deck soon enough, and traipsin' with you throughout wine country out your way, all soon enough. I will, no doubt, bend your ear a bit, and take in your life's stories as well. :)

Hey Vega - I'm feeling down myself, as it's my least favorite time of the month, and I'm in a lot of pain. :( But I'm hoping this will pass for you as quickly as it can... I've got about another 36-48 hours of this.

Brent,

Glad to hear that things are looking up for you.

Hang in there brother.

Fred



Hi there VegaVixen,

My name is Brent and I am very new here. I had to comment on your question. About 6 weeks ago I was ready to kill myself over many issues. I have been divorced for about 12 years now. I have had no contact with my daughter in about 10 years. That is mostly my fault. I am an alcoholic. My parents both died within 6 months of each other last year. I fealt like I had nothing to live for. I was saved from killing myself by a former memeber of this forum. He is helping me out with so many of my lifes problems that I think he should be sainted. He has provided me with shelter, income, and a new focus in life. In fact I found BikeForums because he is lettting me use his laptop computer and he still has it in his favorites folder. I am sorry that your husband died. My biggest anger about losing Dad was that I didn't tell him often enough how special he was to me. I flooded Mom with love after Dad passed but I almost fealt like it was forced or insincere. Kind of like I was trying to make up for messing things up with Dad prior to his passing. I faced it with the love of a person I had just met a few days earlier. We SCUBA dived together and shared some good laughs. He savd me from making the biggest mistake a person can ever make. I thought the world was better off without me than with me. He helped me to realize for myself just how wrong I was. I have a long way to go but now I feel like I can make it there. I wish you the best and will pray for you. You deserve it. You are someone we need to make this world a better place. :) (((HUGS)))

Vega and 200 feet:

Through all of the happy posts and jokes that I may put on here, it's not always so sunshiney for me too. I have so much on my plate that sometimes I just want to throw in the towel.

I get scared because of the decisions I have to make regarding my future.

It's hard when you have no parents or experienced people - people who will understand my reasonings for such decisions - to help encourage you, to tell you that it's gonna be okay. To tell you not to be afraid. I am usually pretty good at being confident in making decisions but this is one of the most important things in my life. And I don't want to lose it. It is more of a sacrifice here. Lose something to gain another.
I don't want any "what ifs" or "crap I screwed up". I have to weigh everything out just right. And sometimes that is hard to balance.

--The thing that keeps me going on is putting forth what my gain will be. And that this dilemma is something that I am going THROUGH, not something I will stay in. I am the type that likes to get things done NOW but in this instance I have to be patient.

I hope all goes well for the both of you. I sincerely do.

Vega. We may never have said anything substantive to each other, but I feel your pain all too well.

This week was oh so rough for me. I cried. I hurt so bad emotionally, I was ingesting Advil on the regular for a few days. As the object/subject are people I love dearly, I am choosing not to hurt them, but to make the tough choice. I am being vague on purpose as the sole purpose of this post is to share that I feel your hurt.

Hang in there. Talk. Talking/sharing has helped me. I still hurt, but I am trying to move through this and not hurt the object/subject.

This thing called life .. tough. Very tough.

Down?

It's my time of the month (yes, us men get those too) and I had a stupid day at work (corporate ************ got me down!).

But I spent the evening with old friends celebrating a birthday at karaoke, got some good photos, and cheered up.

Tomorrow is another day to beat up on my legs and on more clients' bodies.

How did I handle my hardest moments? I honestly don't know... Mostly I was just too chicken to kill myself. Yup, that lasted, oh, 6-7 years or so.