Foo - single.. at long last.

For the first time in close to 8 years I am truly a 'free' man.. For me it is a moment of retrospection, I have a lot of regrets and guilt about the path of destruction and the hurt that I leave behind. There is also a sense of loss at the thought that I will most probably never again see or talk to the person who loved me so much, almost w/o condition - even after she had been put through hell and lost so much. Now, it seems she is finally ready to move on and let go.. c'est la vie man. Welcome, such is the life.


:o

Two words: Charles Bukowski.

I find it interesting at our relatively (a bit of an understatement i suspect) similar situation, yet our completely different views on the matter.

I feel more like my life has stopped.

I wish you luck, you crazy bastage.

I find comfort in knowing there'll be plenty of folks to commiserate with when/if I find myself single again...

So, red house... You free on Saturday?

Sooooooooooooo is she pregnant or not??

Sooooooooooooo is she pregnant or not??

I'm betting not ;)

I hope not. I don't put out for baby daddies.

Two words: Charles Bukowski.


A good friend of mine was really into that guy.. Basically he drank like a fish and wrote about his drunken exploits, yeah? My good man, that is the life I have been living for the past one month and one week.. every day I've drank beer at night (or in the morning if I've been working the night shift) and smokin and all that. In the past month I've lost two women from my life.. both were unhealthy relationships - but both were in many ways very difficult to lose. I will miss her, -this my gf whom I've known for 8 years. She was my first.. she was often times difficult and fustrating for me to be around, but her heart was the purest and most lovong I've every known. All she wanted was to settle down with me and be loved 'completely' and w/o reservation by me.. But I am digressing, because like Charles I am rather drunk right now.. No, I am ready to stop living a Bukowski life style now, thanks.. I am 'free' - no more need for the booze and all that. Praise Jeebus. :beer:

cypress and redhouse sitting in a tree

cypress and redhouse sitting in a tree

...getting more action then thee (and me)

Actually RH, I thought maybe Bukowski might cheer you up because his life was so absolutey f'd up that almost any other life would seem wholesome by comparison.

Maybe you'll just be envious. Read something recommended by Oprah instead.

Sooooooooooooo is she pregnant or not??


I just called her up after four or five days w/o speaking - and she claimed that her stuff came.. and that I had 'no business' w/her any longer. The last time we hung out one week ago I invited her over for dinner - and fed her some healthy home cooked food (incase she was eating for two) - and I was hoping that the two of us could just 'get along' and have a good time .. I asked her what kind of computer she had bought recently - and then joked with her about whether her new laptop computer had a broken caps lock key - becz she had kept on sending me angry/irate e-mails written ENTIRELY IN UPPER CASE LETTERS - even after I had asked that she not do that anymore. I was just 'joking' (haha) about the caps lock key being broken though.. but she used it as an excuse to go on, and on, (and on) about everything in the past that I had done that hurt her.. I kept waiting for it to come to an end... but she would not stop. She ended up sleeping alone in my room that night... until she took a cab home, (which I refused to pay for). . when she got home and got cab money from her mom, she apparently proceeded to tell her mom enough about me so that now her mom and her family ppl hate me.. so yeah. it's over, for good.

I have a lot of regrets and guilt about the path of destruction and the hurt that I leave behind. ..:o


Mr. Noriega, your regrets in these personal matters pale in comparison to the self-loathing you should feel for your years of cocaine trafficking, racketeering and money laundering.

I find it interesting at our relatively (a bit of an understatement i suspect) similar situation, yet our completely different views on the matter.

I feel more like my life has stopped.

I wish you luck, you crazy bastage.



No man.. I am bumbed. It is a mourning process, you know? It's part of life.. but for every dark day there is also a bright side. We are both 'free' to meet new ppl, Timmy - w/o potential harmful reprocussions to other's. :)

No man.. I am bumbed. It is a mourning process, you know? It's part of life.. but for every dark day there is also a bright side. We are both 'free' to meet new ppl, Timmy - w/o potential harmful reprocussions to other's. :)

My current baggage is only slightly related to her, you can only pretend to be happy for so long before it just gets old

I find comfort in knowing there'll be plenty of folks to commiserate with when/if I find myself single again...

I find comfort in being God's gift to women. Sort of the fruitcake sort of gift version, but a gift nonetheless. Somewhere out there some confused broad is pounding fruitcakes like chicklets. That's where I'd be.

...getting more action then thee (and me)

agreed. redhouse walks into a room, even the fish stop swimming. and we all know of teh power of teh cypress. those two together is like a plethora of pinatas or sausages or something.

...a plethora of pinatas....

Would you say I had a plethora of pinatas?

:D:D:D