Foo - Got over a HUGE phobia today

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View Full Version : Got over a HUGE phobia today


nekohime
10-25-09, 09:01 PM
(Warning: very long-winded rambling ahead)

I might have mentioned around this parts before that I am terribly scared of having in my eye. Doesn't matter if it's dirt, eyelashes, bugs, whatever--when something gets in my eye (or even just near it), I have a horrible freak out. Lasik scares me. Contacts scare me. I think I told you guys (or maybe it was the Folding subforum, can't remember) the story of how a bee in my eye nearly got me killed because I freaked out while cycling in the middle of traffic. It was a good thing the drivers behind me were attentive and not going very fast.

Anyway.

Today, dear foo, I decided to confront that fear. I decided to get...colored contacts. My Halloween costume is Shihouin Yoruichi from Bleach, and she has golden yellow eyes. I have dark brown eyes and for the sake of cosplay accuracy, yellow eyes are necessary. Yes, I am all about cosplay accuracy--I'm even dying my hair purple for this costume. Besides, teh bf said that it would be good for me to face my fears. So I very reluctantly dragged my ass to my optometrist to get yellow contacts.

I will tell you foosters, it was not an easy (or cheap) task to get the contacts in my eye. I did tell the optometrist that I was horribly, horribly scared of the things, and she was very patient with me, but boy, the experience was borderline traumatic. After the measurement process, which was already quite terrible with all the sitting in machines and shining light and putting chemicals in my eye and stuff, she gave me a pair of trial contact lenses. She let me take my time, let me handle the contacts until I was ready, then showed me the proper technique of inserting them in my eye.

At first, I really couldn't do it. I was shaking so much that the contacts kept slipping off my index finger and falling, and it took me a couple of fall-rewash cycles until I was steady enough to even bring the damn thing close to my eye. The moment the plastic touched my eyeball, I started crying and shaking again. The optometrist told me to breathe and relax, breathe and relax, and finally, I got the whole contact on my lid and blinked around to get it in place. Then came another scary part--actually touching the contact while it was on my eye to get it perfectly over my iris. *shudder* By the time I got the right contact in, I was a whimpering, quivering mess. It feels weird to cry with a contact in, btw, although I suspect the tears helped with the lubrication.

Then came the left contact. Ohhhboy. Repeat the whole process of crying, shaking, etc. Once I got both contacts in, however, it felt...ok. I blinked a couple of times and it felt normal. I didn't really notice that there was a freaking slip of plastic in my eye. And OMG, I could see. Look ma, no glasses! I wore them around for a while, and it was pretty cool.

Then came the process of taking them off. AAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! Touching my own eye is really scary. I kept telling myself to stop being such a baby about it and just do it, but for god's sake, it was difficult. The pinching part bothered me a lot. But finally, I got them out and back into the little plastic containers. Phew.

I got a trial pair of amber colored contacts from the optometrist. When I tried to put them on away from the guidance of the good doc I was even more scared of the damned things. BUT! After lots of crying, swearing, and a great big dose of HTFU...I got them in! They are so pretty and I love them. Best of all, I can see without glasses. I walked around, did stuff, dyed my hair purple...all without glasses. Yay!:D

http://lh4.ggpht.com/_SdF0uuk3iUc/SuT7Enk9HxI/AAAAAAAAC_g/GQ051-wUg9A/s400/100_1076.JPGhttp://tvmedia.ign.com/tv/image/article/772/772112/bleach-yoruichi_1173741375.jpg

I'm so glad I got them, and SO incredibly happy that I decided to tackle this phobia of mine. I'm probably not gonna wear them every day as I'm still really bothered by the process (plus contacts are expensive), but as I gradually extinguish the fear of getting them in and out of my eye, maybe I will reconsider glasses and use contacts. I see much better with them, and they look nice to boot.

Anyway, that was the story about how I got over my contacts phobia. Thanks for reading my insane ramblings!:thumb::D


Luddite
10-25-09, 09:04 PM
Good for you, I tried to do the contact lens route, no dice. Sux to wear glasses when it's pouring rain out, cycling or running.

SingingSabre
10-25-09, 09:10 PM
Go you!


nekohime
10-25-09, 09:49 PM
Good for you, I tried to do the contact lens route, no dice. Sux to wear glasses when it's pouring rain out, cycling or running.

Why no dice?

shoerhino
10-25-09, 09:52 PM
It is tough to learn how to touch your eye. I just couldn't keep my eye from blinking when I touched it but it gets easier over time. When I first got contacts, I would have to wake up early to make sure there was enough time to put them in but over time, it becomes second nature. Now it takes maybe two minutes to put them in and I only wear them when I exercise.

RubenX
10-25-09, 09:56 PM
Good 4 u... I'm still afraid of yo-yos... I guess I'll never get over it.

KiuBWhy
10-25-09, 10:12 PM
Yes! Amazing. Please post pics of your costume when its fulled donned.

Also, glad that you go over your phobia. When I wanted to get contacts, I couldn't get them in on the first attempt session. I left angry that I couldn't put them in, but went back the next day and got them in on the first try. They are so awesome because I HATE glasses, problem is that I always think that if I get stuck on an Island (Cast Away Style) without glasses...I'm hosed.

bluevelo
10-25-09, 10:20 PM
Good for you. I started wearing contacts in the bad old days when softs required boiling... and they didn't have them in the strength I required, so I wore hard ones.

The new soft contacts take little getting used to, and disposables are great. Since I've been wearing them for 35 years (although about 10 of that I didn't wear them at all), they make riding and going out a lot more pleasant, but if I'm doing serious reading I keep my glasses on :)

nekohime
10-25-09, 10:20 PM
Yes! Amazing. Please post pics of your costume when its fulled donned.

Also, glad that you go over your phobia. When I wanted to get contacts, I couldn't get them in on the first attempt session. I left angry that I couldn't put them in, but went back the next day and got them in on the first try. They are so awesome because I HATE glasses, problem is that I always think that if I get stuck on an Island (Cast Away Style) without glasses...I'm hosed.

I love my optometrist--she was soooooo patient with me even if maybe she wanted to roll her eyes about me being such a crybaby. I now know how awesome contacts are now that I'm wearing them. More comfortable than glasses perhaps, except for the putting it in and out part. Getting them off tonight will be an adventure.:twitchy:

bluevelo
10-25-09, 10:36 PM
I love my optometrist--she was soooooo patient with me even if maybe she wanted to roll her eyes about me being such a crybaby. I now know how awesome contacts are now that I'm wearing them. More comfortable than glasses perhaps, except for the putting it in and out part. Getting them off tonight will be an adventure.:twitchy:

You'll get better with practice. :)

nekohime
10-25-09, 10:39 PM
You'll get better with practice. :)

I can't imagine hard contacts. And boiling contacts. Oh my...:eek:

Luddite
10-25-09, 10:41 PM
Why no dice?

The contacts are just too big for my eyes, it was painful and traumatizing trying to get them out of my eyes :eek:. I was there for over an hour messing with the things. Unfortunately, just didn't work for me.

When I run in the rain, I just go without my glasses and deal, I can kinda see. :lol: Can't do that with cycling though, stuff moves too fast. :roflmao2:

Poppaspoke
10-25-09, 10:56 PM
I'm guessing Un Chien Andalou (http://video.yahoo.com/watch/3854248/10516748) is not your favorite movie.

nekohime
10-26-09, 10:40 AM
I'm guessing Un Chien Andalou (http://video.yahoo.com/watch/3854248/10516748) is not your favorite movie.

OMGWTFBBQ :twitchy: