I don't know how to do it.
So a few months ago I came to the conclusion that I needed to change my lifestyle.
I weighed nearly 270#. Nothing in my closet fit. I got winded walking up the one flight of stairs in my house.
I've lost weight before, lots of it. I know how to diet. But it always came back. I've always been big. I imagined what my life would be like if I was thin and fit. In my teens, I told myself that I would not live my 20's as a fat guy. I had maybe 1 year of my 20's where I wasn't obese.
Now I'm 30 years old, and I refuse to keep living my life the same way. I finally decided diet alone wasn't going to do the trick, and I needed to exercise. I can't tell you how much it is changing me. Once, I thought exercise was just painful and tedious. Now, I absolutely love it, and I'm always wanting to do more and more.
Now, I'm 227#, I've lost nearly 40#, and I can tell my fitness level is improving. Riding my bike is the most fun I've ever had and I'm addicted.
But I feel like I am FAILING! Despite all my weight training, and cycling, and swimming, etc. I can't stop smoking. I've tried the patches, and the gum, and I still smoke. I hate it. I'm embarrassed. I don't have health insurance, so I can't afford the prescription meds that are supposed to help. My spouse smokes and doesn't want to quit, which means they are always in the house.
I'm at a loss, and I don't know what to do. Have any of you gone through this battle and won? How did you beat it? :(