i just finished (2nd place) in a short but difficult road race - 6 times 5 km lap ca. 500 ft vertical climb each lap. while killing myself on the hill I asked myself "what for?" Admittedly a bad time for such a question, but I really wondered what drove me and for that matter other people my age to continue their competitve "folly". I'm trying to make sense out of this so that I could rationalize either continued masochism or an easier life.
Any psychologists out there that can help?