So, I think Iím having some kind of obsessive, love/hate thing with my bike. On the love side: I absolutely love riding. Love it, love it, love it. Getting back into exercise and finding something I love to do is truly wonderful for me. It is amazing how something so simple as riding a bike can be so good for a person Ė physically, emotionally, whatever. It just feels damn good. I even rode this weekend Ė temps were very high in NJ Ė Sunday morning when I went out it was 85 degs. already. I even impressed an athletic neighbor of mine who saw me returning from a ride on Saturday. Didnít matter that I was out of breath from that stupid incline. She thought I was a goddess!! Ha!!
On the hate side: Iíve been trying to be someone who has been riding for awhile and has the ability to accomplish a heck of a lot more than I can at this point. My mind says I can do X and my body says ďum, no, sorry!!Ē To boot, on Sunday I was heading downhill, sweating my arse off from previously going up hill, and wanted to feel the breeze. I say to myself ďcrank it up!!Ē Like Iím Lance Armstrong or something. Like a dope, I shifted my gears all the way up (I was warned not to do this), basically at the same time, I donít even know if I was pedaling, and, you guessed it, threw the chain. Going fast, trying to brake, unclip, etc. Didnít fall but developed a bit of fear with the shoes and my ability to handle a quick stop. Got all ticked off because I had only gotten in 5 miles. Tried, in vain, to get the chain back on and since I had no idea what I was doing it got stuck. Luckily, I remembered to carry my cell phone, called hubby, and he came to fix it. Of course, he says to me ďhon, you gotta learn how to take care of these things on your own in case you canít get in touch with someone.Ē Ok, fine, valid point, the bookís on itís way from Amazon Ė can we discuss this later? He fixes it, I get back on, and at this point was so overheated from a combination of annoyance and heat that I just rode home slowly Ė feeling defeated. Actually, I really wanted to throw my bike and my shoes into the lake.
Anyway, just wanted to let yíall know that Iím frustrated Ė Iím trying to do too much too fast. So, what am I doing to help myself? Well, not sure if Iím doing the RIGHT things, but Iím doing what I think I can do to stop being an idiot. I had been searching the boards and ordered myself a few books Ė the one is some kind of bike maintenance thing (a little more technical than Iíll ever need, but what the hell), another is a heart rate one for cyclists (a woman wrote it and I can learn about by HRM and how to get stronger heart-wise), another is one for rides in NJ, PA and NY and thereís another one for nutrition. Iím also picking up a Cycleops fluid trainer on the way home today for indoors during the winter (birthday present from my husband Ė got me a Lance poster too Ė ha!!). Iíve decided that, for now, I will just get out and ride. If I do 10 miles, great. If I donít, thatís ok too. If I ride 15 mph, cool. If I cruise along at 9 mph, thatís cool too. I'll read the books, I'll learn some new things and try them. During the winter months I will work more on getting myself in better shape with the trainer. Gosh, I had no idea I was this crazy.
Kathy in NJ