I rode 38 miles today, trying to get ready to ride my age in miles next month (55). It was hard. Really hard. Although the area was flat, there was a constant wind (maybe 12 mph?) which made it feel hilly. My knees and butt started to hurt at 30 miles but I kept going because my goal for the day was 36.
Okay, I'm home now, and there are a couple of hours of daylight left. I'm sore, and I'm stiff, but part of me says get out on the bike and ride some more -- at least two miles so I can claim 40 for the day, or twelve miles so i can claim 50, or even 14 so I can claim 54 -- my current age.
My brain is telling me I'm this close, and given how I'm feeling physically, I may not be this close very soon.
Big problem is the thought running through my head that goes, "IF you CAN'T, or DON'T ride your age in miles in October, which was your goal, you area LOSER."
There, I said it out loud. I know that it's not true (38 miles is not a loser's ride) but I can't shake this stinkin' thinkin'.
I want so much to be able to come back to the board and proudly boast of my accomplishment, but I'm afraid I won't make it. On October 2, there's a 50 mile sponsored ride in San Diego I had planned to use as my birthday ride (my b-day is 10/19). But I'm afraid I'll pay the money, start the ride, and humiliate myself by quitting somewhere short of 50 miles.
So -- my goofy brain says go out and get the darn miles this afternoon, ride through the pain, and be a winner. Should I? Or should I let the knees and butt rest up a bit? I don't even want to take another long ride (35+) before trying for 50. And after that, I want to slide back to 10-15 miles during the week, and 20-25 on weekends. This is supposed to be fun!
Sorry to ramble. My brain won't stop spinning.
I can assure you I will ride for at least 2 little miles, to claim 40. Hmmph~!