I feel surrounded by simple-minded imbeciles who do not have the poor luck of naturally being simple-minded imbeciles, but instead, choose to be.
I cannot even recall a woman I have met that truly thought for herself. Does our society make women out to be meek, simple-minded, and emotion driven? Do women fall right into this niche? I know it works both ways. There are many men who fall into the one of the many niches society has created for them.
My current situation leaves me questioning where I want to be/go.
I have a son with the woman I live with.
Let me take a second to describe myself, our relationship, and changes within.
Over the course of our time together, I have gone through a lot of psychological changes, self-induced psychological changes.
High school was indescribably odd. I had many friends. I did well in classes. I never really had any reason to complain, but there was always something... odd.
Shortly after high school, I realized it wasn't just high school that was... odd. Large parts of our society just didn't 'click'. Why do people act the way they do? Why do people act like they want things to be better, but are obviously making things worse for themselves, others, or for everyone involved, then lying to themselves about it when questioned. Why do people feel like they have to spend all nearly all their time earning money so they can buy things that they think will bring them closer to other people (or themselves)?
Honesty has become a huge part of my life. I question everything for the sake of betterment and happiness.
Nearly every person I meet cannot handle honest questioning. I cannot think of a time where my intetions are negative. I would like to say that they never are, but I'm not claiming to be perfect.
If I were to pose a simple question like "I wonder if doing _blank_ instead of doing _blank_ would be better," I would receive a highly defensive response, a change in mood, an unspoken idea that my intentions are questionable, and countless other things that confuse the hell out of me.
I realize that most people in our society are lying, greedy, selfish people, and that causes most people to assume that everyone's intentions are as such, but I think that after a few years of living with someone you would come to trust them.
Anyway. She wants to seperate. I can handle seperation. I can handle it if she no longer loves me. I can handle all the things that would normally cause one person to not want to be with another person.
The thing that is really driving me crazy is her answer to my question, "Why are you not happy?"
She is not happy, because I question things. This makes absolutely no sense to me.
The majority of my intentions for things consist of attempts to make things better for people or to make people happy(ier).
I dont do this by forcing my opinion on people, or by telling them what they should/shouldn't do.
I support a live/let live philosophy. I simply offer advice or pose questions to help others see from another perspective and possibly make them or others around them happier. I am never forceful with my advice.
I dont really know what all this is about, or really why I'm posting it. Maybe I can find some insight through someone else here in the forums.
I dont like make-up. Its so fake looking. What is the deal with make-up.
edit: Why do people wear underwear? Why do people do things that dont really have a purpose just because other people do them?