My relationship with caffeine really started when I was about 15 in the summer before my sophmore year of high school. Some of the events of that summer led me to my handle 'gurana' (purposefully misspelled, btw). At first, my consumption of caffeine was some sort of identity statement. I was generally a wired person before all that, the increased caffeine intake did nothing to really add to this, but being the geek that I was (and still am, really) I found it cool to brag about how many mgs of caffeine I probably had that morning and into the evening. Much like people you hear bragging about how much alcohol they consumed, only more lame.
In my senior year of high school, caffeine became something i needed. I didn't have the feeling that I was perhaps addicted yet, but I was using it more for the real purpose of getting everything done in the course of a normal day as opposed to doing it 'just because'. By the time I got to college, I was well aware of my level of addiction. If I went more than 8 hours without some caffeine, I would get terrible headaches and go through my pseudo-DTs. This, I feel, was the start of my bad sleeping habits that have carried me through to the present. I was averaging, during the week, maybe 4 hours of sleep. Perhaps 5 on the weekends. It never occured to me that I might be doing harm to my body or my general mental state -- it was just life, and I had no qualms about it. At least I wasn't doing speed, right?
Now, as I sit here, in between tasks at work, sipping on my venti red-eye (large coffee with 2 shots of espresso) I realize that I've been consuming less and less caffeine. I realize this because I feel like my heart is about to explode, but before that my eyes may pop out. I'm restless, a little jitterrrrrryyy, and I have a vague sense of anxiety. (If you ever read starship troopers, the opening portion before Ricco is dropped on the Skinny's planet, describes pretty well how I'm feeling.)
If I don't change soon, I think something bad may happen. For instance, I seem to recall having some sort of point to this post, but for the life of me I can't think of it now.... So... who else here thinks that they may be O.D.-ing on caffeine?