Wow, I think that was quite possibly one of the worst feelings of my life.. thought fer sure she was avoiding me.. and well, it's a long story. Asked her if we would of even talked tonight if I hadn't worked the overnite shift.. She said ''yeah, of course.. I was busy but you know after I was done we'd get some beers - cuz we're friends'' .. she said 'something' like that or something, yeah sorry I'm a little drunk right now. Anyways, when I heard that I told her then to ''go away'' ..and Jeesus I feel soooo much better.. I can't believe the power she had over me. And btw, she went away.. and life is good (and only a little while ago it was ABSOLUTE hell). Thanku Jeebus for curing me.. All I had to say was the magic words. ''Go Away''