Something happened in my life that put me in a bad place. I began to isolate myself, feel sorry for myself and take it out on other people. Because i sat at home i spent a lot of my time on BF.net and because i don't know how to handle things when they go bad at times i took a lot of things out on a lot of you.
None the less, for a long time many of you were there for me and offered advice. Some did it gently, some did it bluntly, both were correct and useful.
It boggles my mind that it's nearly been half a year since my girlfriend broke up with me but it has been and i've become a much better person because of it. Last night i went to borders with a friend of mine and she showed me a book series that she likes. The premise is that you send in post cards into the author saying whatever you want...some of them are funny, some are scary, some are odd...and anything in between.
I came across one that was a heart, half of the heart said "I'm horrified of being alone" and the other half, upside down, read "I'm more scared that i'd settle to avoid that".
I think what i was about to do was settle on something to avoid being alone. That would have gone against the advice of all of you.
To summarize, i came here because i was depressed as hell. I acted pathetically. You all tried to offer help, each in your own ways, and often i lashed out because i was angry. For the most part, the support remained.
At any rate, I've come out of this pathetic depression of mine. Some of that is due to me talking to someone, some of that is due to the realization that everything that happened should have happened (and probably a while ago), some of it due to a certain someone that may just be turning my head upon my heels, much of it due merely to time, but also because of the kind, often strange, completely undeserved and usually entertaining support i got from all you weirdos. So...thanks.