holy crap, i am freaking out. am i wrong? someone help me out.
i've decided tonight that i need to take a leave of absence from university this quarter. there are a number of reasons for this, although, i can't say i've thought this through really. it's a rash decision, but i think better sooner than later.
there are two reasons
1) i'm presently burned out with. stressed out. i'm well on my way to completing my mathematics degree, but i just need a change in my life. i've taken a year off before and gone back to school successfully, and i have a good GPA 3.4, so i know i can come back if i put my mind to it.
2) my job(s). i basically have three separate work obligations which are pulling me in separate directions at all time. i'm overwhelmed. i'm a web developer by trade, but i'm also working as a partner in a small startup company, and we're gearing up a product for VC funding. the process is exhausting and demands a lot more out of me than i think i can do reliably while going to school.
3) my mind. all of the above has led me to some serious depression as of recent. i have been in therapy and it is very helpful, but i think i need to cut out some stress in my life if i'm going to succeed in my business.
4) my bank account. due to the above, i've been going to school as a part time student, meaning my living expenses are as high as they would be if i were a full time student, but i'm making slower progress toward graduating. this makes the whole schooling process about 50% more expensive while i'm enrolled. the income from my jobs is insufficient to offset the extra money i'm paying. my bank account balance is slowly but surely dwindling.
my biggest fear is that i might not go back if this project really takes off. but it's now or never. oh jesus i'm going crazy.