3 people died on me in a 2 week period. Coworker died of leukemia at 21, almost-boyfriend (22?) of a close friend committed suicide, and a friend (28?) was murdered in Phoenix.
5 days after the murder, details about it were released. She was stabbed multiple times and almost decapitated.
4 hours after I find out about the details of the murder, my dog of 14.5 years dies in my mom's and my arms. This was last Wednesday at 1:45AM. We buried her under the orange tree.
I'm feeling quite depressed. I haven't had these thoughts or emotions since I was in high school. I have an extremely short fuse and am feeling very, very violent, which is very unlike me. Cycling only helps so much, but I'd probably have been arrested by now if I didn't ride.
I just want to beat the **** out of somebody or sometime, preferably someone on my A**hole List.
I'm going camping with some friends for a night to celebrate a birthday, then family's coming into town, then a family trip. I haven't had time to deal with my emotions...just dealing with idiots, bigots, asshats, penisclowns, ******nozzles, morons, imbeciles, etc. I even almost started **** with a coworker today over her stupid, moronic, inane whining.
I'd also like to give a big "F**K YOU!" to the idiots in my life. My last two bosses, my first 5th grade teacher, my dad's 2nd ex-wife, my high school chemistry teacher, Ellis Harper (you 'nozzle), and a couple choice members on this site (you know who you are).
I'd like to give a shout out to the people who make this corner of the internet tolerable, all the cool people of Foo and the knowledgeable people in Commuting and Mechanics.
I'm going to go drink hot cocoa and then maybe get tanked.