I'm having one of those. Lucky for me, is 2:30am and everybody is sleeping. I have those every now and then. When it gets really bad, I have to hide from people. Walk-in closets are good. I hate having these irrational and unjustified panic attacks.
Tonight's was triggered by wifey being late. We are currently staying on a high crime area and she is not familiar with it... and she is very naive. We ran out of milk and she insisted on going by herself instead of letting me do it. The store is just 2 blocks away and the car haz GPS. It's a 20 minutes trip. What's the worst that can happen? right?
Well, she managed to get lost and had to ask a policeman for help. She came back 4 hours later, escorted by a police patrol. I was worried sick. She had the cellphone but there is no phone in here. I had a 2nd car at my disposal but I had the kids and no extra car-seat. I felt so useless.
The fact that she got lost, driving 2 block away, with a GPS in the car, got me thinking. What else is she capable of? Crossing the street without looking? Running with a knife on her hand? Petting an unknown pitbull? All that stuff... I'm aware these are unjustified fears, but I have them. Every time I'm in love with someone I often think they might cause harm to themselves by not paying attention to what they are doing.
Hopefully it will go away in a few hours, before the family wakes up. This sucks...
PS: Yes, I've gotten therapy for these fears... no cure tho.