Anonymously tell someone how you REALLY feel.
Dear Mr Arizona Cop,
When death takes away someone, a barrier develops that is representative of self preservation. And as if while on duty, an occasional peek around the wall keeps things up on things. When you are out on call, it's safer to be behind the wall with your body vest on, your pistol fully loaded and all your gear in tact and all accounted for, and your mind sharp and on the side of caution. It's a big risk to step out from behind that wall, and sometimes it has to be done...but if you accomplish what you have set yourself to do, if your heart is really in it, it will all be worth it. Sometimes you just have to wait for the right moment.
Please be careful out there, I want you home safely.
I know I am careful. I have to be.