Well, venting....because venting helps...or at least it temporarily relieves the problem.
A little history first....I have recently come a long way in my life. I was always shy, dependent on my parents, not outgoing, etc. Didn't really go anywhere in life. At some point, I decided that this phase was over, and that change needed to come about. Well, insane amounts of therapy later, after alienating some family members and getting kicked out of the house, I feel my life is finally going the way it should. That means, opportunities are opening up, I feel self confident, I move about socially with ease, the whole lot.
Now, I managed to obtain a very good PhD, I am financially secure and self dependent (save a good sized study loan, but okay). I can manage what life throws at me(or so it seems) and I am moving towards my longterm goals (for now, get a PhD).
So, you ask, what the hell is wrong? Well, I worry....I worry my ass off. First, I worried about my future carreer...now that I have a PhD position, I worry about finances, if I don't worry about that, I worry about my love life and what not.... Furthermore, although I have shown tob be able to cope with life, I don't feel that way. I feel like whatever comes my way is all luck. Even things like my PhD which are evidently not something you get through luck(I was accepted within 6 days of application, without interview, and they got me a really good scholarship because they were 'convinced they needed to hire me').
While it is not serious enough to disrupt my life, it takes away my energy and, more importantly, my inner peace. I have been meditating about it, taken therapy for it, thought about it, talked about it....and nothing seems to help.
Well, as said venting....feel free to share your misery with random people on the internet or tell others how it's all not that bad (or maybe it is).