I'm in some odd mood to air some of my dirty laundry. Some back story here. I haven't seen this girl in over 6 months. I respond with the way I responded in this series of IM's. I've told this person on several occasions before that I'm not interested in a relationship with her, sexual (I admittedly was interesting in sex only for a while but have disclosed otherwise since then) or anything outside of a friend. I get these little messages on a periodic basis. Because I don't want to respond to her, I thought I would share what my thoughts are to the foosters.
First off, I cooked dinner for some of my close friends. I do this on a pretty regular basis when I'm home. Secondly, I'm not a player. I don't mislead people. I'm forward and honest about what my intentions are every time I have some sort of encounter. If anything, I think I'm just the opposite. Thirdly, I'm not sure how I let her down. Again, I've never misled this person in any kind of way. I'm not sure how she can misread "If you want to be friends and contact me every now and then that's fine, but I seriously don't want to be in a relationship with you outside of that."
[5:45:13 PM] Her: Im waiting for you, with nothing on...........
[6:14:04 PM] Me: i have company
[6:14:45 PM] Her: oh, like work company or play? I thought you were out of town?
[6:15:35 PM] Her: nevermind dont answer that, now im just being nosey
[6:16:13 PM] Her: okay well, I will bank on no, so i wil ttyl.
[8:48:31 PM] Her: (d)
[9:43:03 PM] Her: why must you be a player? Do you even have a heart at all? Any feeling to you at all, like do you ever feel guilty? Or bad about someting you have done?
[9:52:15 PM] Her: okay since your not on here I will vent to an open space...........Your an awesome guy, you have so much "good guy" potential, yet you dont even come off that way, you come off as a typical guy, your **** (Short for Richard) gets in the way of everything. Why even waste your time talking to me? You have planty of other, closer booty calls aroung you, so why me? Thats all I am to you anyway. If thats all you think of me as then count me out. I am not that kinda person, not anymore, yeahy I want attention, but not that damn bad, Im better than that. You are a great friend, but to see that you look at me as a piece of ass, kills me, and to make it worse, you act like my friend kinda, then treat me like any other **** (Duck anyone?), thats not fair, it sucks. When will you stop? Im sad for you, its almost a waste, like most days when I think "man crackerjab is an awesome guy, hes such a good friend" you let me down later, so the one guy I have some faith in for mankind, and you show me, there is absolutly no hope in men, period. They are all the same arent they?
Flame or discuss. Either way.