Death grief, mostly. I'm executor for my mother's estate - and the only heir - and now that death certificates have been issued, the estate is in probate and I now need to work on getting the house cleaned out and working with estate sales folks, etc. to get house sold and the contents that I don't want sold (there are a lot of antiques).
I'm just very sad. I've written about this on Foo before... Both of my parents loved each other very much and died within six months of each other. Neither had what I would call a good death... but it wasn't horrible either. My Dad had heart problems for > 30 years and died about a week after suffering a hemorragic stroke. I got there the day before he died, he could still recognize people but his voice box and swallowing reflexes were gone (and no guarantee they'd come back). He didn't want to suffer too long if he was going to be handicapped, and we made the decision to not do the breathing machine or feeding tube - he would've hated that. So he died on his own terms, in his sleep, peacefully, in the hospital room.
Mom was diagnosed with Stage IV lung cancer that had spread to her back two weeks later... she'd had back problems for years, but ignored the increasing pain she was feeling to take care of Dad. She did radiation and chemo but her immune system collapsed Thanksgiving Week. At that point, she opted for hospice after spending 3 weeks in the hospital. I scheduled a visit for shortly after Christmas, she started bleeding out, but lasted long enough for me to see her in what is now my home the day before she died of pneumonia in her sleep, in a hospital bed in her own living room, peacefully, with her family and friends there.
This is real hard. I know many of you on BF have problems that are much worse than this. I don't have any siblings, and with my children in CT and my job here its just very, very hard right now.