I am thinking of this on the surface; nothing mysteriously deep here.
Basically, I have developed this problem where I can't appreciate what I am doing at the moment because I am too busy thinking about what is coming next. For example:
When I am at work, I think about the drive home.
When I am driving home, I rush because I think about getting dinner going and eating.
When I am making dinner, I take shortcuts and make less stuff beause am thinking about eating it.
When I am eating dinner, I eat quickly because I am thinking about cleaning it up.
When I am cleaning up, I think about playing with the kid.
When I am playing with the kid, I am not enjoying it because I am thinking about putting him to bed.
When I am putting him to bed, I am thinking of all the other things I want to do but I don't have time for.
When I am finally getting a chance to do Activity #1, I am not enjoying it because I am thinking about doing Activities 2, 3, & 4 later, but I know I am not going to get to them.
I get to bed and can't sleep because I am planning every 15-minute block of my next day.
Repeat next day, every day, for the past couple months.
Actually, I take back what I said about not thinking about this deeply. Maybe it's not so simple as slowing down and enjoying the moment because there are deeper issues at work here. For example, my wife fills our days after work with so much stuff taht she wants to do that I don't have time to relax. And we are at this weird part of our relationship where I feel like I need to clear everything with her before I do it--I realized the other day that I even ask her if it is okay with her if I go to the bathroom because I don't want to interefere with her plans for us for that moment... YIKES!!! I think I just opened a can of worms with myself here...!!
In other words, I am not enjoying the moment because I am always trying to escape it...