My 9 year old daughter had a gym teacher that was really special. He encouraged the kids to exercise (including cardiovascular exercise,) eat properly, discouraged smoking and drugs. He seemed to be a real example to the kids and I was hoping to get to know him better.
This morning, he did not report for work. They found he had shot himself.
There are so many things going through my mind. What could I have done to intervene if I had known he had problems? He did seem to have lost his positive attitude since his recent divorce, but I had no idea he was thinking about this. I have such sadness over his death and I am grieved by it, but I also wonder about the school kids he left behind. What will they do? How will they take the news of his suicide? They already know he died, but they don't know how he died. How and when will I tell my daughter how he died? Should I wait until she hears about it through the grapevine, or should I tell her myself?
I just can't believe this happened, especially to someone who seemed so nice and had such a positive outlook on life. I only hope there is a lesson in this for me, such as being able to recognize the signs of a depressed person. I noticed he had changed, but I had no idea!
I'm really not feeling great about this. I have to figure out what to say to my little girl. I guess all the kids' parents do, too.