Assuming that I live to be of average lifespan, I find myself firmly planted in middle age. My eyesight is going, my waistline is growing, and hair is popping out everywhere it's not supposed to and going away on the top of my head. I hear tell it's better than the alternative and I am not quite ready to find out....Along with the physical changes I have found a growing trend on the social front and wondered if it's just me being a cranky old coot, or if others find this occurring as well.
For the past couple of years I have found I have less and less patience for other people's drama and bull****. I have no issue speaking my mind in a very blunt and to the point manner, which quite often hurts peoples feelings, particularly when not in person. The social media doesn't convey my feelings well. As a result the list of friends and social acquaintances is becoming smaller and smaller. I have found that I prefer hanging around the house with my wife more than I desire going over to other peoples hanging out. It makes it really hard to meet people when you don't go out. With the new people we meet we often hold them at arms length and even with the long time friends, we talk less and less. We always claim how busy we are and how life gets in the way. I have always found in life that we make time for the things we want to do and excuses for the things we don't.
Over the past two years we have purged ourselves of a large group of long time (since right after high school) friends and cut ties with a great deal of her and my family. This wouldn't be a point of concern for me aside from the fact that my father did this to a greater degree some years back and literally took off to the woods for a few years. It makes me more vigilant that I could be following that same path, and I just don't want to end up a lonely, cranky old man living in a cabin in the woods....I haven't purchased a cabin yet but have been thinking strongly about a tent and some touring.