1st, don't bash yourself - we all have limits. issues, high points. low points, etc. The improtant thing is, there are machines, like the EZ3 AX trike that help you get out there, move your feet, move your legs, jog your mind, and get you close to the absurd world of motorists [Note: Cyclists have been at battle with motorists for more than 100 years - but the cyclists will win!!!!!!]
I have several cycles. My favorite, and most favored is my EZ3 AX. My daily commute is an e-assist Cannondale mt. bike., my ever present back up and foul weather commute is my AX with a Zzip fairing - I love it, I hope you love yours too.
email me if you have any specific questions about the AX. It is a great machine.
New Rochelle, NY