To protect and respect the privacy of his family I won't post his name or the detail of the suicide. But I will share my memories of knowing this person.
My wife and I went down to our LBS after work because her new shoes came in and she wanted to try them on to make sure they fit. This is when we found out.
He was more then a fellow cyclist though. He was the first person in the bike club I met and talked to and the first person to invite me to join the club.
It was about 7 years ago I went out to ride on a Thurs evening by myself. I came upon a large group of riders. I rode up along side a couple on a Tandem, said hello, introduced myself and asked him why everyone was riding. Meanin was it a organized ride, etc? He introduced himself and his wife and said no this is the Siouxland Cyclists bike club and told it was the regular Thurs, Night ride & they were heading to Jefferson and back. And they invited me to join them. So I did. After we all got back to where the ride started he and his wife talked to me and invited me to join the club. Shortly after that I did.
From what I understand he has been a customer or the LBS since he was a young boy. Everyone who knew him loved him. He had also been a long time member of the bike club and part of our board of directors. Cycling was a passion of his. It was a great part of his life.
He was always an upbeat and very positive person who never spoke ill of anyone. At least I never heard him do so. If you were in a down and depressed mood he would do what it took to cheer you up.
He meant a lot to a lot of people who knew him.
This is what makes this so hard to accept. Apparently he has been suffering from depression for a while because of stressful and tragic events that have happened in his and his wife's lives over the past year or so. I don't think anyone knew this was going to happen until it was to late.
Not only was he a member of the bike club but he was also in the 185th National Air Guard. So he is also a Veteran.
I have been going through a whole mix of emotions adn questions in thinking about and dealing with this since I found out & I've only known him for about 7 years. Including: anger, sadness, concern for his family, questioning why it happened, why didn't he get helo, talk to someone, etc.
I know what it is like to be depressed and suicidal. I've had to deal with it myself. I got help because I reached out. Certain members here in these forums that know me from another cycling forum know what I am talking about. Depression and suicidal thoughts are nothing to be taken lightly folks. If you are ever feeling this way please get help anyway you can. Who knows if I would have actually gone through and carried out my thoughts of suicide had I not reached out and received help for my depression. I try not to think about it to much. And I feel I'm a stronger person for getting the help I needed today. We all have tragic events and problems to deal with in our lives. But we need to make sure we deal with them the correct way. Suicide is never the answer.
Thank you for reading this. Please keep him and his family in your prayers.