Wow. This physical therapy. Getting muscles stretched out to shoulder. My wife does a great job of stretching out my arms to get the muscles loosened up . Boy, does she hear the explectives. I bite my lip and the physical therapist so far has been spared. In stretcing out the muscles, it is a pain akin to what one must feel before a bone is broken. you fear it will break.
So I look forward to getting back on the bike and do some work on the trainer, getting ready for my pending rides. It has been three months. I love my cycling and to celebrate my pending return, I bought a new jersey and a pair of Voler Team shorts.
But now I am being silly. I look at my old loyal steed, my first road bike -upon which I was badly hurt. I somehow blame it. Think it jinxed. Even though it had nothing to do with the accident, I blame it?
So today, thinking I will resist getting upon my first bike, I swapped out my hybrid on the trainer and put upon it my first road bike. Maybe that is a strategy to displace blame by using it again.? Think as of now I will resist riding it on the road. I am being silly, but my doctor said my injury was almost too bad to repair.
I look at the bike. The new paint job, the new drive train, the new headset. The new wheels. I think I ran over something, I should not have? That is not the bikes fault.
I always used this bike for transporting my own bike on planes. I am being redicilious, I know. But, this injury will cause some loss of bike confidence.
Maybe riding it on the trainer will get me used to its' feel and regain confidence. ? Some bike friends say it is natural to blame something and maybe I should sell it. Don't feel this way about my touring bike. Would you sell a bike upon which, you were badly hurt ? Don't think one overreacts about such issues. This injury if not properly healed would prohibit my returing to my job. Took over 60,000 miles before I had this accident. Another 60.000 I could be retired.