Generally speaking, I'm a pretty anxious and stressed out individual. It just seems to be the way I'm wired- I've been like this my entire life. I was a stressed out toddler, and now I'm a stressed out 30-something. If everything in my life is going okay, or even if it's going well- I start to worry that there are other the other shoes is about to drop and things are gonna get bad. It is almost as if I try to stress myself out (I'm not actively doing it, my mind just goes there). If things are going badly, I tend to worry that the worst is going to happen. And then I found biking.
That isn't to say that biking has relieved all of my stress- I'm still a freaking stress case most of the time, but at least when I'm biking I feel better. It used to be that cycling was a tonic that would make me feel good for several hours after I stopped, but the more I bike, the shorter the post-biking euphoria lasts. That isn't new either, I used to exercise at the gym like a maniac, always trying to get that post-exercise euphoria to last longer- but it doesn't matter how hard I go, I always have to go harder and longer in order to keep the euphoria around for any length of time after I adapt to my new fitness level.
Okay, whatever. That's the way I'm built, I can accept that.
But now winter is coming, and I'll have to soon give up cycling for 2-4 months, depending on the length and severity of the winter, and now that and a bunch of other things- like the fact my wife is due with our first child in April, that my current job is up in August, and we're probably moving to Houston, Texas in July so I can start another one there- 2nd move in 3 years, is starting to stress me out. I really want that job in Texas, it seems really exciting- it's doing exactly what I want to do- but I'm a bit nervous about moving to Texas- mostly because I don't love the heat, and my wife hates it.
So I bought a bike trainer- Kurt Kinetic Road Machine from REI a few weeks ago.
I hope it's enough. I can already feel the tension building in my shoulders.