I get home from work and decide to take my new(first) bike to the local park to do some easy riding. I have to walk the bike about 3/4 of a mile before I can start riding because I live on a busy four lane street and it's illegal to ride on the sidewalks here.
I get to a side street where I can start riding and as soon as I start peddling I feel wobbly. The handlebars going back and forth a little as I'm not peddling smooth enough to keep them straight. I start to go down my first hill, which freaks me the hell out. I have serious balance issues and being tilted forward or backward bothers me. I start thinking how I weight about 10 times what the apparatus carrying me down the hill at x mph weighs and how easy it would be for me to crush it, fall off, or both simultaneously.
At this point I am sweating profusely(no heart thumping though) so I gradually slow the bike down and stick my foot out and stop very ungracefully. At this point I'm at the entrance to the park, where there is another hill to go down and up again. There is also a nice copse of trees. I decide to walk the bike into the copse of trees and take a break. I get out my water bottle, sit down, and start to think over my decisions so far. Along with everything else, I still haven't figured out changing gears very well, and I refuse to pick myself up off the bike.
After sitting for a while(15 minutes) I notice that the sun will be down in another half hour and decide to give the bike another go before I leave for home. There's a grassy bike trail, I find a path that isn't hilly and ride for about 200 ft. I try shifting gears a few times as I am having a lot of trouble finding a comfortable gear. I hear a strange pop, and now my chain has disconnected from the cog where my pedals are. I am so frustrated at myself at this point I sit down and try to compose myself by laying on a leaning tree and thanking God there's no one else in the park. I walk the bike up two hills and back home.
I am really discouraged. I'm thinking that I made a mistake, not only in getting a bike that probably isn't tough enough for me, but even if I do will I get to the point where I can ride it comfortably. I don't have any friends who ride and if this is going to happen to me all the time(even if I do buy a bike built for my weight) is it going to be worth the time, money, and humiliation I put into it. My LBS closes too early on weekdays for me to stop by after work which means that I'll have to take it by on Saturday and try to pick it up on lunch whenever it's ready(the guy there told me yesterday he usually has a 2-3 day turnaround).
Did I make a mistake? I want to stick with it, but right now it is so discouraging. I don't even want to look at the bike.