so i left at the beginning of may on what was supposed to be a 10 week long solo tour. i made it two weeks before taking a train the rest of the way. nasty headwinds for 10 out of 14 days. rain and cold for a lot of them, too. it just wasn't that much fun, and by the end of the couple of weeks, it didn't feel like vacation. it definitely changed my life in a lot of ways, but it wasn't at all what i expected.
so at this point i'm wondering, what now? i think i'll try another, shorter tour next year, probably a more scenic route (instead of across ohio, illinois, and indiana).. it's hard though, because i'm fighting the feeling that i'm a big failure, that i couldn't hack it. since i got off the train, my relationship with the bike hasn't been the same - it's been really difficult for me to ride it much. it's almost like i'm afraid of it, like something's gone sour.
can anyone share their experiences after they cut a tour short? what's going on here? is there a way i can conquer this feeling that i failed and should just never touch a bike or a pannier again?