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    Finding the way back to bikeforums.

    So, it was a dark and stormy night wouldn't be the appropriate beginning or syntax for this thread...so let me back up a bit before I bust into the room again.


    Hi.
    I missed a great many of you over the last 3 months. Lemme tell you where I've been, and why you don't want to go there, ever.

    It was in about September that it hit me, like a wall. Burnout. The combination of living carfree, being a vegetarian, running 12+ miles a day and cycling over 30 finally hit me hard. It was ugly. First I started to lose weight in an odd way. Only way to explain it would be to say losing 15 lbs. in the last week of September scared the hell out of me and my wife. Then the knee injury kicked in out of nowhere. Then the flu that never seemed to go away, just hung around occassionally messing with my stomach. Then the cold that settled in (I've still got).

    So, I decided to take a break. Big mistake.

    Within a week I was back into playing my video game (World of Warcraft). It only took another 2 weeks before I allowed myself to slip and drink a diet soda...which turned back into Mt. Dew within a few days of that.

    Fast forward to November. I'm no longer a vegetarian, I feel like absolute ****. I'm doing nothing but can tell my body isn't going to put up with anything I throw at it. So I just settle in for the winter and depression.

    Fast foward to the now.

    Bikeless. Don't let someone convince you that they know what they're doing when they ask to borrow a $1k bike. Mine ended up in the dump because the 'friend' let it get run over by his neighbor's truck.

    Fat. Oh my dear Jesus. I went from 165 lbs. in September of last year (that was after fighting to lose 100 lbs. over a year) back up to 235 lbs. as of today.

    So, I'm back. With a vengence as they say, but its more of a moew now.

    I'm still wrapping up the last two years of college I have to finish up for my next degree. I'm searching for another bike, to start the long, slow process of getting back into shape.

    Really, I'm here to be laughed at, because I deserve it. Somehow I went from being marathon ready to being a slovenly fat loser in less than 4 months.

    At least I can start again though, although this time, I can only hope I don't push myself to that ragged edge of self-destruction.

    Goal 1. Set a date to do another marathon.
    Goal 2. Begin the upward climb.


    Humor note: I was able to run 1 mile yesterday. I was so embarrassed that I sat down on the curb and cried for 20 minutes. It took me longer to cry and compose myself than it did to run the mile. Pretty pathetic for a 32 year old 6' tall male Crying like a baby.

    Anyhow, its nice to be back. Hopefully I won't fall so hard ever again.
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    hey dude...


    i'm with you. you can totally do it. you hit the bottom and there's only one way to go...

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    Learning experiance !
    This time a more realistic pace, and always the knowledge in the back of the mind of how a slip can progress.
    Willpower for teh win !
    Jarery

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    -If two bikes are going in the same direction, ITS A RACE!

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    Very scary facing the next 40yrs knowing how little it takes to trash your body.
    Did you see "Supersize Me" and take it to heart? The nice thing is you know what you have to do and that you have already done it, very few of us ever get to marathon level running. Don't do this in your 50s though, the pit is a lot deeper then than it is at 30.
    Steve

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    Quote Originally Posted by Santaria
    So, it was a dark and stormy night wouldn't be the appropriate beginning or syntax for this thread...so let me back up a bit before I bust into the room again.


    Hi.
    I missed a great many of you over the last 3 months. Lemme tell you where I've been, and why you don't want to go there, ever.

    It was in about September that it hit me, like a wall. Burnout. The combination of living carfree, being a vegetarian, running 12+ miles a day and cycling over 30 finally hit me hard. It was ugly. First I started to lose weight in an odd way. Only way to explain it would be to say losing 15 lbs. in the last week of September scared the hell out of me and my wife. Then the knee injury kicked in out of nowhere. Then the flu that never seemed to go away, just hung around occassionally messing with my stomach. Then the cold that settled in (I've still got).

    So, I decided to take a break. Big mistake.

    Within a week I was back into playing my video game (World of Warcraft). It only took another 2 weeks before I allowed myself to slip and drink a diet soda...which turned back into Mt. Dew within a few days of that.

    Fast forward to November. I'm no longer a vegetarian, I feel like absolute ****. I'm doing nothing but can tell my body isn't going to put up with anything I throw at it. So I just settle in for the winter and depression.

    Fast foward to the now.

    Bikeless. Don't let someone convince you that they know what they're doing when they ask to borrow a $1k bike. Mine ended up in the dump because the 'friend' let it get run over by his neighbor's truck.

    Fat. Oh my dear Jesus. I went from 165 lbs. in September of last year (that was after fighting to lose 100 lbs. over a year) back up to 235 lbs. as of today.

    So, I'm back. With a vengence as they say, but its more of a moew now.

    I'm still wrapping up the last two years of college I have to finish up for my next degree. I'm searching for another bike, to start the long, slow process of getting back into shape.

    Really, I'm here to be laughed at, because I deserve it. Somehow I went from being marathon ready to being a slovenly fat loser in less than 4 months.

    At least I can start again though, although this time, I can only hope I don't push myself to that ragged edge of self-destruction.

    Goal 1. Set a date to do another marathon.
    Goal 2. Begin the upward climb.


    Humor note: I was able to run 1 mile yesterday. I was so embarrassed that I sat down on the curb and cried for 20 minutes. It took me longer to cry and compose myself than it did to run the mile. Pretty pathetic for a 32 year old 6' tall male Crying like a baby.

    Anyhow, its nice to be back. Hopefully I won't fall so hard ever again.

    Welcome back! It sounds like you've come a long long way to go. Best of luck with you!

    I would definitely recommend going to your doctor and getting them to refer you to a dietitian. Part of the reason why maybe you bonked would be a lack of food combined with the amount of exercise you were doing. There's nothing wrong with being a vegetarian, but you have to be able to eat for the exercise you're doing. At some point, if you're not eating right, your body will just shut down. You're definitely going to want to eat right this next time around- plenty of carbs and proteins for the amount of exercise you're doing.

    Also, you may want to see a sports psychologist. They can really help you with the issues you're facing. If you don't have a PPO, your doctor can recommend one for you. It's not pathetic to cry at all- you just seem to have some issues beyond not being able to run a mile. Shoot, I can't run a mile.

    Can I recommend some books? Try:

    Dr. Phil Maffetone "In Fitness and In Health"
    Nancy Clark "Sports Nutrition Guidebook"
    Jerry Lynch "Running Within"
    Jerry Lynch and Chungliang Al Huang "Embrace Tiger, Return to Mountain"
    Jerry Lynch and Chungliang Al Huang "Thinking Body, Dancinig Mind"

    Again, good luck with your fitness program. We're all pulling for you!

    Koffee

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    You seem like one of those "All-or-Nothing"-types. that's cool, I am too. But a good bit of advice is to not over-do it, whether it's with fitness or of course flabbiness. Of course it's terrible to be overweight and out of shape, but the OP sounds as if you might have been a little to hardcore with your fitness routine, leading to an injury. I would suggest pehaps taking up meditation to focus your mind and help you relax. Running and cycling are a wonderful way to get "in the moment," but if all your mind-centering activities require physical labor, you WILL burn yourself out or hurt yourself. Look into meditation, Yoga, or if that strikes you as too much "Eastern Mysticism," try Pilates and just sitting quietly. Lose that weight, but don't tear yourself up in the process.
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    Good advice on this thread.

    I would just say that at least now you know the warning signs of burnout. The next time they start appearing you'll know to respond. The body and mind both need some time off now and then. If we don't consciously give them time off, they tend to take it anyway.

    I was a runner as a vegetarian and I was a runner as a non-vegetarian. Once I started adding chicken, I felt much more grounded in my workouts and much more focused. Not saying that's your solution, but my body was definitely missing something.

    I would add to the book suggestions: The Mental Athlete.

    One positive is since you gained the weight quickly, you will find that it comes off relatively quickly. Don't be too hard on yourself on the way back. My suggestion is while you are getting the diet and workouts back, make a point to avoid negative self-talk. It's too easy to fall into the 'why did I' and "If only I". Slow and steady . . . and schedule healthy breaks, cross-training, deep tissue massages, days off etc. Be good to yourself and you'll be back in no time.

    Sandy

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    Really, I'm here to be laughed at, because I deserve it. Somehow I went from being marathon ready to being a slovenly fat loser in less than 4 months.
    Sorry, I refuse to laugh at you. Your dedication and commitment has always impressed me, and I know it will continue to do so. I look forward to hearing more about your new journey -- and I'll be the first to cheer you on as you overcome some obstacles that would have crushed the spirit of a less-dedicated man.

    You're not starting from scratch. You have the knowledge you've been accumulating, and your body is going to remember its strength quickly. Welcome back.

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