try to take everything with a larger grain of salt. Go out, race and have fun while trying not to expect the world from your legs. With practice you will get better, you will start making more friends at the races and then just enjoy the time on the bike and at the races. You have started into a form of bike racing that many people consider some of the hardest there is but also is probably the most excepting of any type. When you come around those corners and complete strangers are shaking their cowbells, it is for you!