OK, I think I got your point although it's not necessarily as clear as you meant it to be.
You seem to have reached a point where you're going to have to decide: Are you an individual, or a lemming? By your currently chosen course of action, you're going against a lot of usual (I refuse to necessarily call it normal) behavior, and of course that's going to make life a bit difficult.
You've reached the hard part: Do you buckle under, or say to hell with it and follow your own path? And you're the only person who can answer it. Now, once you take a deep breath and make that decision, and assuming you're going to stick with your planned (more difficult, not quite socially usual) path, and realize you have the determination to stick it out . . . . . . . it's all downhill from there.
Just believe in yourself (whoever yourself happens to be) and go with it. The rest is just implementing your decision.
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Syke
“No one in this world, so far as I know — and I have searched the records for years, and employed agents to help me — has ever lost money by underestimating the intelligence of the great masses of the plain people. Nor has anyone ever lost public office thereby.”
H.L. Mencken, (1926)