Wow, what a bummer. You're too old for me to help you as one of my special ed students, although otherwise you might qualify. Probably a diagnosis of OCB, Obsessive Compulsive Biker
Wait, that's most of the people on this forum
But really, hang in there. When I was sort of "shown the door" in a leave on your own or we'll help you do so approach, it forced me to look around and I ended up with an infinitely better job. Just wish I could help more than being a cheerleader for you (besides you wouldn't want to see me in my U of Illinois cheerleader skirt & sweater)