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03-02-12, 12:29 AM
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Hi, I'm Bryan.
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I've realized that.
When I stopped smoking for a month a few months ago, the manic side of me (I'm the ****ing man, no one **** with me) sort of disappeared. At the same time, the depressive side of me started to define me.
Do I self medicate because I have mental illness, or do I have mental illness because I self medicate?
I want professional help. I've had suicidal thoughts for a few weeks now. Cry more, call a hotline, HTFU, whatever. I'm too big of a ***** to actually do it, so I think I'm safe for now.
Why do I share this with strangers? Obviously, I'm ****ing toys-in-the-attic crazy. I was also wondering if anyone else felt this way before or currently. I'm really not a bad guy, but my dependence on substance abuse is really starting to change me, for the worse. My personal friendships are falling apart.
When I stopped smoking for a month a few months ago, the manic side of me (I'm the ****ing man, no one **** with me) sort of disappeared. At the same time, the depressive side of me started to define me.
Do I self medicate because I have mental illness, or do I have mental illness because I self medicate?
I want professional help. I've had suicidal thoughts for a few weeks now. Cry more, call a hotline, HTFU, whatever. I'm too big of a ***** to actually do it, so I think I'm safe for now.
Why do I share this with strangers? Obviously, I'm ****ing toys-in-the-attic crazy. I was also wondering if anyone else felt this way before or currently. I'm really not a bad guy, but my dependence on substance abuse is really starting to change me, for the worse. My personal friendships are falling apart.
If you ever need someone to chat with, feel free to DM me and I'll send you my email and phone number. I know what you're going through, and I'd love to help.
03-02-12, 01:34 AM
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THE STUFFED
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ZOMG EOS 5D MkIII
=> it's been so long and there's a new one!!!
Not impressed cosmetically through; it's as if canon just added an extra I to a mkII through... but innards, innards are what matter.... although they seem to be an appetizer compared to the d800.. =/
=> it's been so long and there's a new one!!!
Not impressed cosmetically through; it's as if canon just added an extra I to a mkII through... but innards, innards are what matter.... although they seem to be an appetizer compared to the d800.. =/
03-02-12, 07:16 AM
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today I bought these for my raleigh
hope will be good with my 17T cog, brakeless
hope will be good with my 17T cog, brakeless
03-02-12, 08:32 AM
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03-02-12, 08:55 AM
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Would you just look at it
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Thanks everybody for the kind words. I am leaving pretty soon to see my first appointment.
ZOMG. They made them in black? Where do I get this?
NOS?
NOS?
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03-02-12, 09:38 AM
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Today not a single **** was given in statistics class, spring break in t-minus 22 minutes.
03-02-12, 10:01 AM
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Brown Bear, Sqrl Hunter
Today I was running to catch the train in my clipless shoes and slipped and fell right on my ass. Now my lower back hurts.
03-02-12, 10:07 AM
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i smell bacon
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Today is "Unofficial St. Patrick's Day" at UIUC.
03-02-12, 10:12 AM
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it's not black, it's a bit dark blue...bought it from my friend, yeap NOS 
I've done 46-16 brakeless before so I think I'll survive with this new ratio (49-17)
I've done 46-16 brakeless before so I think I'll survive with this new ratio (49-17)
03-02-12, 02:00 PM
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whatevs, 50/17 brakeless
Anyone want a 67cm frame?
03-02-12, 03:20 PM
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Goes to 11.
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Got my formal full-time job offer at work! Getting a tattoo this weekend to celebrate. Next up is house shopping.
03-02-12, 04:56 PM
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沒有腳踏車的居民
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I've seen doctors about depression before, back when I was a kid and not too long ago. I'm really good at covering up feelings, so they attributed it to minor/major depression, and brushed me off. I'm not going to take prescription drugs, because from I've seen, that makes the people worse.
I need valid diagnosis before I start treating myself though. Or else I probably will end up killing myself by driving my psychosis farther along.
What I hope to find are possible and reoccurring triggers that shift my mood, how to recognize them, and how to deal with them so I don't go all Gary Busey on everyone on the reg.
I appreciate the responses and even that ******** picture. lol.
I need valid diagnosis before I start treating myself though. Or else I probably will end up killing myself by driving my psychosis farther along.
What I hope to find are possible and reoccurring triggers that shift my mood, how to recognize them, and how to deal with them so I don't go all Gary Busey on everyone on the reg.
I appreciate the responses and even that ******** picture. lol.
But good luck with everything.
03-02-12, 05:02 PM
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sniffin' glue
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LOL, yeah, it is an invented science.
Surprisingly, your diet can have a major effect on your mental state and well being. Look into it.
Surprisingly, your diet can have a major effect on your mental state and well being. Look into it.
03-02-12, 05:11 PM
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ya i've read this somewhere also. i forget where but i read that eating cashews helped some people cure depression. worth a shot?
03-02-12, 05:15 PM
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Here comes the quackery.
03-02-12, 05:37 PM
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03-02-12, 06:12 PM
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Still kicking.
Today I was on the 930 for 12 hours.....
Miles: Massive
Miles: Massive
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Appreciate the old bikes more than the new.
Appreciate the old bikes more than the new.
03-02-12, 06:14 PM
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jesus christ
i like cycling, but not that much lol. way to go.
i like cycling, but not that much lol. way to go.
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so high, my heart cannot bear the strain." -A.C. Jobim, Triste
03-02-12, 07:08 PM
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- chicken/turkey
- salmon/mackerel
- cheddar/swiss cheese
- spinach
- citrus fruits
- whole wheat (I personally enjoy rye more)
- Popcorn (supposedly for the carbs)
- Water
Also, St. John's Wart, 5HTD, omega 3s, vitamin D, vitamin C, protein, folic acid, tryptophan, selenium.
There's a ton more to what you might eat may help, but just for a few.