There's no doubt people are emotional creatures and ruled more often by what they feel as opposed to what they know.
You'll eventually decide what's best for you rando, but don't let this get you down too much. Life is full of tragedy and we all have to go sometime.
For the most part, the going is rarely as good as we would wish it to be. What's important is what we do when we have life, not they way in which we go.