No don't wish that... not ever. Don't leave your children without a father. I love the sport as well (I have never done doubles though - I much rather sag...) but not enough to allow some tragedy... terrible thing to see and experience. Talk it out with friends and family. You most likely will be suffering over it for some time.
__________________
______________________________________________________________
Private docent led mountain bike rides through Limestone Canyon. Go to
letsgooutside.org and register today! Also available: hikes, equestrian rides and family events as well as trail maintenance and science study.