Its my hope that you recover completely and I think you will be better able to ride your bike after you heal. I had a similar ordeal last spring and for sure I thought I was going to kick the bucket. Terrible bad weakness but instead of loosing weight I gained 15 lbs. Not that will piss a person off. I am still haven't lost all that weight. I know it looks bad now but try to see the pile of @#%&* at the end of the rainbow. Seriously though, vent any time you need to, I know it helps. Good luck.