I lost my father 20 years ago and I still think of him most every day. Talk to your Dad about how you feel. Talk to your Mom as well. She may be able to help you more than you can know. Both of these people love you more than life, use that love to help you. This may be just how I feel about my kids but I think that you will be surprised about the help that a family can give. I agree that you should go for a ride with your Dad even if it is to the corner and back. Just be with him.