As some one has already posted please talk to someone about your thoughts. My father and mother both passed away several years ago. I did not lose them because I still think of them everyday of my life. I had a brother die in a car accident. Again I did not lose him because I think of him always also and I still stay in touch with his wife and kids. So yes you will BE upset when they give up this life but you will not lose them. your father is in everyting you say and do. I am jUst glaD they stayed on this earth for as long as they did and I Had a chance to get answerS from them all but I still ask for help from them when times are tough. Sometimes I even think they answer when certian things happen. Keep looking forward and make the best of the time you have.