Since the doctor said it was small, it'll go away on its own. Don't feel so bad--anyone at any age can get a h-rrhoid. Surgery is really rare. One of the best things you can do is sit in the bathtub and keep the water as hot as you can stand it. Try to do this 3 x day for a minimum of 15-30 mins. If you absolutely can't get in the tub, use a Sitz bath, but keep adding hot water. Apply the cream generously and frequently. If you weren't embarrassed enough already, here's a really embarrassing suggestion that you may find useful: buy a box of women's sanitary pads called "LiteDays" to place in the rear of your underwear to keep any cream from seeping through onto your pants. It may take a few days, but once it starts to heal, it'll get better quickly. Keep your fiber way up (pickles are excellent). Good luck.