Between the comment about a picnic for one and your French language skills I am noting a tide of existentialism washing over your responses. I'm no psychologist but it seems plain as day to me that whatever emotional barrier has been erected is insurmountable. You need to realize when the time has come to let go. Buy a new bike and distance yourself from the old one with haste. It's just like pulling off a band-aid quickly. The pain will pass all the sooner for the sudden intense pain the initial separation will cause.