Sucks man, totally agree. It's probably going to hurt having to get off my meds when I have to. Have you thought of going to a place for detox? You seem to have the willpower to at least WANT to quit, and you don't seem to want to keep on doing what you're doing, because you are regretting it...Keep an eye out for a detox/clean and clean and sober home for a bit, it may be worth your while, ya know?