The life worth living is the one where you get to set the metrics you'll use to measure progress toward the things you think are important. No one else can set those metrics or decide for you what's important. Seems to me you've done a fair amount of deciding what's important to you and how to measure it. The life we have is something precious. I'm always amazed at the number of people who never purposefully decide how they will spend theirs. So, yes, Denver, give yourself permission to spend yours the way you want.